I’m going to the beach in a month with my family. They said I could take a friend. I don’t have anyone to take. My roomate is way skinnier than me and she works so she won’t be able to take the time off. Its ok. I don’t want to have to entertain anyone but myself. I always feel like a loser though. Like…No wingman sortof…Not that I even want to think about talking to a guy there anyway. When I go to the beach with my family I just like to sit and chill and lay out and read & all that good boring stuff. Its just a time to relax before I go back to this hell hole place I call home. I had 2 pieces of pizza at 3:30. My roomate and I have been running/ walking for the last 2 days in the evening. Its actually pretty fun. We get out of the apartment & get to talk a little. I’m tired..

What is wrong with me?! I’ve finally found a place in my house where I can get a relatively decent wireless signal. Well from now on I’ll be writing in here ever day. I’m here at my apartment all by myself without my roomate or any one. It seems like it would be lonely…but its really not. Its actually sortof comforting. I just pretty much sleep all day. Really I do. Well not sleep but just sit in my room in bed and do nothing. But I guess that is better than eating right? I usually dont eat these days until about 5:30 or 6. Thats when my roomate gets home. & when i’m not going out getting drunk & doing drugs or working then I’m pretty much in bed sometime between 11pm & 1 am. I’m debating on getting a real job. I only work about 1-2 days a week at the bar &since schools out no one really comes there so I only make about $70 dollars a night…SUCKS! Once school starts it will be better. Except for the fact that I will actually have classes on days after I work so thatmeans gettng up at 8am instead of laying in bed all day. Well my roomate is on her way home so I’m gonna logoff here. I will probably write morelater. Plus I have to catch up on all of your lives! ❤ ya

It is wayyy too hot here! i’m laying in my bed in my new room with a fan blowing on me watching greek on abc family. I’m super bored and I need to stop eating! stop stop stop..no more tonight. so far i’ve had fruit snacks, some kind of frozen meal thing that was broccoli, carrots, and cauliflower in a sauce of some sort, then just now i ate some tortilla chips in salsa…it wouldn’t have been so bad if i would’ve just ate the salsa alone. 0 calories.cool right? i’ve been drinking only water..mostly cuz we don’t have anything else but its ok. and its too hot to drink anything else.

It is wayyy too hot here! i’m laying in my bed in my new room with a fan blowing on me watching greek on abc family. I’m super bored and I need to stop eating! stop stop stop..no more tonight. so far i’ve had fruit snacks, some kind of frozen meal thing that was broccoli, carrots, and cauliflower in a sauce of some sort, then just now i ate some tortilla chips in salsa…it wouldn’t have been so bad if i would’ve just ate the salsa alone. 0 calories.cool right? i’ve been drinking only water..mostly cuz we don’t have anything else but its ok. and its too hot to drink anything else.

It is wayyy too hot here! i’m laying in my bed in my new room with a fan blowing on me watching greek on abc family. I’m super bored and I need to stop eating! stop stop stop..no more tonight. so far i’ve had fruit snacks, some kind of frozen meal thing that was broccoli, carrots, and cauliflower in a sauce of some sort, then just now i ate some tortilla chips in salsa…it wouldn’t have been so bad if i would’ve just ate the salsa alone. 0 calories.cool right? i’ve been drinking only water..mostly cuz we don’t have anything else but its ok. and its too hot to drink anything else.

So I know its been absolutely FOREVER. I’m probably going to have to just keep a writtenjournal to myself =( My new house doesn’t have internet & my stupid bitch of a roomate doesn’t ever want to pay for anything even though she’s the one with a real job..i just work at a bar like 2-3 nights a week. I try to pick it up from theneighbors and sometimes i can get a decentconnection…butwe’ll just see how it goes i guess. More a little later..just lettin ya know i was still sadly alive