I’m fairly proud of myself for yesterday. Nothing til 2pm had a 170 cal healthy choice meal, snack around 6 which included celery sticks, green peppers, and cucumbers with calorie free ranch dressing (not recommended it was just awful..but I guess better than plain celery) & When I got home I had less than 1/2 a cup of fat free cottage cheese. That left me with a grand total of 250 calories. Now I’m just got to keep that up. I’m going to stay busy today, so it should be easier. There is a Christmas party tonight at work and I want to go to show off (I’m wearing a little santa suit-ish thing) Yes I crave attention even though I hate my body..Doesn’t make much sense I hate it. But I don’t want to go into work too early. It starts at 5 with a huge buffet of food ahhhh! but I don’t work til 8. I’m thinkabout going in around 7-ish, but having something filling before I go, so I won’t want to eat there.
I haven’t weighed myself in over a week. I’m too terrified to, but I have to today. HAVE TO!