I want my body back! This is stupid to even post, I know. Because there is nothing I can do about it. I’m 6 months pregnant and much smaller than anyone else I know that’s pregnant, but I can’t help but think of how fantastic I was doing before I got pregnant and how absolutely amazing I would look now. I needed this to get me away from the drugs and the alcohol and I’m more than excited about the arrival of miss Marleigh Jade, but I hate how I feel, not even so much how I look, but just the fact that I’m afraid I’ll never be back to my body every again. I want to breast feed because mothers shed baby weight faster when they do, but that also means I have to eat really healthy. I’m trying to figure out which way I’ll lose faster. Instead, I SHOULD be focusing on what would be best for my little girl. I want more kids, but I NEVER want to go through this again.